Refocusing

I sat down a few days ago and started to write an update, but could barely start it. I don't know why normally they aren't hard, atleast not starting them. Well in a way it is good though because this one is headed a different direction.

  Since the break ended things have seemed different. I can't really put a finger on what changed, or if anything really did change. Maybe it was coming into the last half of my time here, or the thousands of things that occasionally get under my skin. Though it might just all be in my head as well.

 Some days I have been tempted to just completely check out. I am tired of dealing with the hassle and constant irritation that is life here some times. Things that for months hadn't been an more then a minor inconvenience suddenly drove me nuts. (Like not having a way to keep any type of cold food or a place to cook) Patience is harder at times, especially when working with some of the high maintenance people in the program.

 It is the times like that though which help put things in perspective. Those are the days that really can drive you back to God, and depend on Him for help. Apart from His grace I would have thrown in the towel long ago. Whenever that temptation comes, He uses to show me how I am depending on my strength not His. It refocuses things and puts them in perspective. The times I question why I am even here or what I am here for. He reminds me I am not here for me, and I am not even here for the people. I am here because this is were He wanted me. No, I am not saying the people aren't important, but following His will is so much more important.

 I find it funny and ironic that something I have been teaching the boys is something I was learning without realizing. I have talked about it two different weeks, back to back, in the John. How first and most important above everything else is the glory of God. Not the people, not the ministry, not the location, not the teaching, and not the classes. That His glory should be something focused on and should take priority over all else. It was in the verses I covered in the John class (talking over John 15:4 one week, and John 15:4-17 the next).

 There have been many times I have lost sight of that. Often though when I was reminded I didn't notice that was what I was being pointed too. Whenever I wondered or questioned why here and why me. The point I always came back to was that God wanted me here. I missed the point in the regard that I didn't realized it was for His Glory.


 Just be praying for me to finish well. Abide ends eight weeks from today. Approximately ten weeks and four days from now I will be back home in Georgia. While I have begun thinking of the what I will be doing after, and have been busy with some things. There is a great need to remain focused on the task at hand.

 Pray as well for this coming weekend. The Mbarara house has an outreach coming up but it is going to be completely different then any other. Why is it different? Well mainly because the others don't involve crossing international boundaries. Yep thats right, we are leaving Uganda for this coming mission. For this we are headed south to Rwanda. Just pray, cause it will be needed.


 This one hasn't been really anything like the other updates. Though I think in a lot of ways it is more important. It is what God has been working slowly in me, and there is still much left to learn.

Blog update coming soon

I just realized how long it had been since I had done a blog update. Be looking for one to come soon. Until then I will be preparing for a lesson I just found out that I had to teach.